It ain't over, till it's over

"how do you live with loneliness?" a friend asked. "just let yourself feel like your the last man standing, that you can't fall down." i proclaimed.

i have long lost that feeling, the feeling that i'm like a standing stone. i am beaten, i am defeated, and all by myself. my own worst enemy is me, the sole me. after 3 years learning of psychology, i know that it's all in the mind, but it's hard to feel strong and in control, when everything seems to be out of control. life isn't over yet, i am telling myself, it's not at the beginning, neither in the end. maybe i'm trapped in middle of nowhere, maybe things are not going in my way, but it isn't over yet, no, not yet.